hey

sorry guys i have been off line and not comenting or viewing and for that i am sorry, but my moms heath just kept getting worse, in the end i could not even leave the house except for runs to the doctor, the er, pick up meds or do the shopping.
3 weeks ago tonight my mom had an attack i guess her heart just couldn't hold out any more
and in the early hours the following wendsay morning her light went out on this earth forever.
she sufferd so much towards the end. i am not going to sit here and write about how unfair it is or why her. but i will say she was an amazing person who tought me how to be the best human being i could be. i have sisters but really for the first time in my life i am truely alone. but oddly enough my greatest fear is not being alone, this may sound stupid i fear i will forget the sound of her voice.

I didn't know how to smile
Until you smiled at me.
And I didn't know how to laugh
Until your joy filled up my soul.
And I couldn't even walk
Until you took my hand to guide me.
And I'm not sure how to keep on walking
Without you here

well thats it for me for now we will see what tomorrow brings.

thanks i love you all ED